2 posts was being done for today, it's seperated as it was unrelated.
I feel myself, a not perfect girlfriend,
For my recklessness, not being understanding and observable enough.
I felt guilty, for what I did.
The bf, just returned, he promised to go Charity Night on saturday with me.
Because of the returning on friday, he had to rush the assignments in limited time.
He hardly slept for the few days, just to complete the assignments given, then, only he able to back on friday.
Before I knew he was actually rushing the asignments in order to meet me on friday,
I used to grumble for waiting his call til late night for "dono what he was actually doing".
Finally, he back on friday, yet, felt uncomfortable and fall sick terribly on saturday.
After consuming 2 tablets of panadols, he insisted to accompany me to charity night as promised.
When the event was being hold, he stayed strong and I didn't manage to notice that he was actually sick again after consuming the medicine for more than six hours.
When asked, he said "I'm ok" (smiling)
I touched his forehead, it was really hot!! I shocked and urged to see doctor.
Again, I can't accompany him to see doctor cause the clinic was crowded and I was rushed by mum to the second function!!
At that moment, I felt myself, undescribable
- The bf, keep reminding me to drink water while he sick so that I won suffer like him
-The bf, insisted of accompanying me as promised by staying strong though he was sick, but I failed to accompany him to see doctor
-The bf, while trying to be strong, I failed to notice he was actually very sick
-The bf, always try to do his best for me, but I will only know it at the very last.
-The bf, his maximum, always my minimum, but sometimes I can't even do "my minimum" for him
-The bf, loves me with his whole heart, using an unique loving way, using action not using mouth
-The bf, always bear my temper and forgiving me, not using an uneasy tone to talk to me, but I'm always the one using unpleasant tone to speak when I'm not in the right mood.
-The bf, always the first, try his best to help me, but sometimes I can't help him at all
So on........
I shed tears, when I recalled all these, especially what happened today.
When I recalled, I felt myself being too bad, not being understanding enough.
I guess, there's no one will treat me better than him,
I hope, it's not late for me to realise it now.
p/s
-I hope you will be able to recover soon.
-JJ, sorry for not helping you too much
-Kelab kebajikan, you guys tried your best, well done!
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